Valentine's Day... for those who have a love/hate relationship with it

Let's face it.  When you're in love, you can't wait for this day to come around, once a year, a holiday with no purpose other than to spoil your sweetheart (or get spoiled).  You can't wait to wake up, just to see what will come of the day.  As the work day goes on, you see other women receiving flowers or gifts, one by one, the smiles and oohs & awwws (gag).  And you just can't wait for your turn.


Then there's some who, just hope that maybe that certain someone in your life, who you haven't quite determined the 'status' of your relationship/dating journey yet, may surprise you, and life would turn right side up in an instant, that all of a sudden, you're in love!


And then there's the rest, who have to watch all of the surprises & laughter & smiles, and have to remember that they're not going to receive a darn thing, they get to go home to an empty & quiet house, crack open a bottle of wine, turn on the TV to only find sappy love movies on every channel, and if they're lucky, they might even crank up the ole oven to bake a frozen pizza.


I can say I've been in all three of these positions at one point or another and I can't honestly say that I prefer one over the other.  But what I have definitely learned throughout many years of love & heartbreak, is that me alone can make myself truly happy.  Happiness comes from your inner soul & being, not from a dozen red roses that are miserably overpriced.  As much as I desire to be in love, I know that when I wake up every morning that I will determine my own destiny of happiness.  And besides that, I've also learned the major difference between being lonely or alone.  


So this weekend as I scroll through the TV lineup and all I see are love sick movies, I will press on to make myself happy & alone, not miserable & lonely.  I picture these feelings on the same page as those who desire to be a mother, but find themselves without children on mother's day.  But it's alright, because my day will come, it's just not time yet.